i think something's dragging me down now.
draining my energy, killing my sleep, making my eyes really puffy every day.
the last 1 2 weeks really.
made me sick!
=(
it wasn't that bad, 2 panadol cold pills made me better.
but i felt uncomfortable enough that i had to get off work a few hours before time yesterday.
thanks roland.
he let me off early.
or i might not only feel worse, but also freak out when i make my way home after work at 10plus 11.
cause there are hell lot of... you know..people..
HAHA.
okay nvm.
so today, i even missed church, cause not only i felt bad and uncomfortable,
my throat hurts, my head's hazyy, eyes puffy.
really needed quality sleep BADLY.
so i did.
sometimes, i do hate sleep.
cause they give me nightmares.
of many sorts.
and the one i had this morning,
i vaguely remember, something happened between noel and me.
(i don't remember what though.haha)
but we started treating each other coldly.
like totally not talking.
till a point i couldn't see him when he walked away.
i remember being firm on my stand initially, not willing to cave in first.
but when i couldn't see him anymore,
i felt really frightened and starting freaking out.
thankfully i woke up soon after.
:l
the feeling of being ignored and left alone really sucks.
it's freaky and frightening.
this isn't my only nightmare of noel leaving me.probably 2nd or 3rd one already.
i woke up crying the previous one lah.
cause the feeling was sooo damn real.
cried damn hard.
but oh well.
thankfully it's all in my dreams only.
ahhaah.
noel came over today!
to 'surprise' me.
hahahha.
knowing i'm ill, he even made porridge for me lah!
goodness.
seriously wonder what i'd do without him.
and because my family went ahead to my cousin's birthday party at chevrons, we were alone at home!
noel didn't want me to be alone at home so he actually waited until 10.
10's late lah.
1. he takes 1half hour to reach home.
2. CHELSEA MATCH ON AT 11.
HAHAH.
by staying till 10odd already means he will miss like half an hour of the match!!
nice bf.:)
ANYWAY,
CHELSEA WON LIVERPOOL 2-0!!!!!
WAH LAOOOOOO
LIKE DAMN CRAZY LAHHHH.
HAPPY!:):)
loveyou bf.
thank you for everything you've done for me today!:):)
